First of all, drop dead antidepressants! They kill negative emotions alongside with positive ones. You are an adult and strong person, you are a man after all! You can cope with depression by yourself. I've been ill for 2 years now and I know that it can't be cured. Just like you, I'm deprived of lots of conventional activities. Dammit, I can't even go outside for more than 2-3 hrs! Music is the only thing that helps me cope with depression. You have to admit that your body isn't your friend anymore and try to live normal life with it. Get back to guitar dude